I forgot to post this when I got the chance. I wrote it at about 11:30pm in Spokane. I couldn’t post it then because the server was down. So I’m posting it now.

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we may become amateur providences of God to someone else, working against Him while we use His weapons.
-Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest-

Earlier today I was sitting and reading my devotions while listening to “Clocks” by Coldplay. While listening I heard the line “Am I part of the Cure, or am I part of the disease?” I started thinking and then read in My Utmost for His Highest this “We may become amateur providences of God to someone else, working against Him while we use His weapons.” This made me wonder, am I part of the cure? Or am I just another Christian hypocrite? Do I go to church every Sunday and youth group on Tuesdays and not live it? Am I really helping further the kingdom of God? I then read this

“We are indeed amateurs, coming in and actually preventing God’s will and saying, “This person should not have to experience this difficulty.”

Now I know that I am not always a hypocrite. Yes sometimes I am, sometimes I make mistakes but what I try to do to make myself different and not a hypocrite is apologize. I don’t just make the mistake I then use that for God’s will. I show that I am the wrong one rather than avoid it. I realize though that I am an amateur. I realize that I actually do prevent God’s will sometimes because I say I’m sorry for what your going through, rather than I pray that they will experience 10 times more difficulties.

“When you begin to see that person in the middle of a difficult and painful struggle, don’t try to prevent it, but pray that his difficulty will grow even ten times stronger, until no power on earth or in hell could hold him away from Jesus Christ.”
-Oswald Chambers-

So I conclude from reading all of this that I need to strive to not be an amateur. I need to pray that people will be brought to their knees from theses hard times. That they will struggle and through their struggles see God. I need to pray that I will fall to my knees and praise God for my struggles. That I will see God through my struggles and grow stronger in him.