148.

The number stared at me as I ran Thunderbird; the email program I use. 15 of 148, 16 of 148, 17 of 148.
“Wow, that’s a lot of email”

And I hadn’t even started to read it. Let alone reply to it! I didn’t know if it was worth it. 2 weeks and 3 days of no email and this is what I ended up with, a lot of catching up to do. Other than the email at the end it had been great. In the past 2 weeks I had gotten to relax so much. No having to worry about checking email, or updating my site. Plus I didn’t slack off and procrastinate on my homework so I got a lot more done, but as the computer beeped at me saying that the email had finished downloading I wondered if it was worth it.

“Was I really any better off? Was life better because I didn’t have to worry? Was it worse? Did I get closer to God?”

Yes and No. I hadn’t been any better off, or it didn’t seem like it. Life might have seemed simpler but was it really easier? I might have gotten closer to God, but I sure didn’t feel like it. I guess doing this just taught me to be thankful for things like the computer. For time alone with God. For being able to talk to friends in person. For relaxation, even when it doesn’t seem like relaxation. Basically I learned “Everything in Moderation” as they say. No computer didn’t make it better off for me, it was the same, being on the computer all the time didn’t make me better off either.

So

Basically I need to compute in moderation. Let’s hope I will continue to do that. Now back to that email.