To get a sense of my life in the past few months you can check out this nice list I have compiled of my emotions
I’ve felt very misunderstood probably from being undecided and unsettled. which is from being lost which comes from being overwhelmed and disoriented. Being overwhelmed and disoriented has been from feeling vulnerable, desperate, troubled and exasperated. These feelings are caused from being upset, hopeless, torn and helpless. Since I am feeling all of these things it causes me to become overwhelmed with the emotions, which leads to me being lost and even more disoriented etc. This cycle is pretty much endless except for occasional lapses.
These occasional lapses though are great. In these moments I become very excited, thrilled, energized and joyful. This makes me feel relieved, and confident. The confidence produces hope and makes me optimistic. All of these cause me to become determined to fight harder the next time the depressing, and sad feelings began to overtake me.
All in all these feelings make me feel human, they make me feel alive. I just pray that God will continue to work in me and help me to stay determined and hopeful.
THANKS FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS ANDS SUPPORT!
March 26th, 2008 at 8:42 pm
wow, that’s pretty intense. yay for emotions, they make life…interesting…haha
March 26th, 2008 at 10:01 pm
*agrees with kelsey* emotions make life very interesting, it gets annoying when you’re so happy one moment and then something happens and you’re all depressed again. though you have a point… it does seem to make me more determined as well
it seems now everytime those feelings of being lost come around I get over them quicker because I immediately say ‘hey! why should I worry, God is taking care of me!’
ps. Philippians 4: 6-7
April 8th, 2008 at 11:01 pm
Emotions. What was God thinking? JK. He must have some sort of plan for them…lol. I guess how lame would worship be without emotions right? Like who could glorify our savior and be stoic? And yet times like these are just…well you already described it. I’m looking at your verse of the day and its pretty amazing…Heb 1:3. “sustaining all things by his powerful word.” (thats just a snippet to make you want to go read the rest lol). Our savior is truly amazing; that he would humble himself to humanity and shed his blood to cover sinners…deserving nothing better than eternity in hell. And yet he gives grace daily. Amazing huh? I love how we have a personal, intimate relationship with the creator of the universe. And how he feels your pain. And gives you grace to cope. Its just crazy to think that God’s work in our life results in reactions like James has towards trials. Considering them pure joy. Not that they don’t hurt. But that we can know that our “suffering produces perseverance, perseverance character and character, hope. And hope does not disapoint us because God has poured out his love into our hearts” (Rom 5 something…idk if its word for word). You’re a great friend whom I know God will help through all these tricky, hard things…Em