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Forgiveness. How does it work for you? Or does it?

For me Forgiveness is not so hard, but saying sorry is. With forgiveness it’s hard to let it go. You shouldn’t forget though. I think that’s wrong. Just forgetting it and acting like it never happened is a lie and it doesn’t work. You will always think about it. You have to be able to live with what you did and learn from it. You have to be able to learn from what others did. Forgetting will not get you as far.

Personally I find it harder to ask forgiveness than give it. This is because I have a problem with looking good to others. My “Self Image” if you will. I want to be viewed as perfect even though I am not. I mean I have huge problems just like everyone else. The difference though (or I hope) is that I will try my hardest to ask forgiveness and make up for the mistake. Rather than just blow it off. I find it extremely hard though to ask forgiveness because then people get to see me in the “wrong” and I struggle with that. My “Self Image” is not so perfect than, and I want to be perfect.
Whenver I have a preblem with something I pray about it. So I always end up praying about the situation for a while and asking God for forgiveness first then going to the person and saying “Hey I’m really sorry about what happened”. I don’t ever want to destroy a friendship or anything over any argument or something I’ve done wrong. I know it can happen if you don’t ask forgiveness.

So remember to ask forgiveness. As the Bible says in Ephesians 4:25-27 “Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. In your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.”

So don’t let the sun go down without asking forgiveness. Don’t be angry with someone else or yourself for anything. Ask forgiveness. Ephesians 4:32 “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

So tonight I went to a concert. It was Revolve and Jason Ackerman.
Jason Ackerman, has some cool and some funny songs but isnt the best vocalist. Revolve on the other hand, well Micah and Kristin for this show, just them are amazing. Kristin has great vocals and Micah sure can rock on the guitar, they have talent. Anyway after listening to them I always wonder, How do they manage to write such good songs? I mean I can hardly write a piano piece, let alont vocals for it. So I was wondering. Then Jason played and he had one song I really liked. He also talked about how he went to a song writing class, and how they said never lose an inspiration. So how do I do that. What if I have a great inspiration and I don’t know how to actually do it? You know? I don’t know how to write other than by improv and then writing down what I like. So is there and easier way? If so I would like to know? Thanks!

So Wednesday the 19th was very good. It was our Church’s first Youth Group Preview Event. In other wods our first actuall youth group. The talk by Brian Kilde was amazing. He did awesome. Talking about identity and his son Skylar who thought he was Spiderman. Haha. Anyway the game went awesome I lead that, and we had lot’s of people. I was very amazed, Praise God! I can’t wait until our next! Brian Kilde is such a talented guy. I hope everyone who came had a great time, I think most people did. God sure is amazing. Anyway, Core team meetings will still be going on weekly every Tuesday from 7-8:30. So we will be thinking about the next one. Wow.

So I am currently reading “The Slumber of Christianity” by Ted Dekker. It is really good, and has made me ask myself “Am I obsessed about heaven?” I want to ask you the same thing. Are you obsessed about heaven? Really think about it. In the book Ted brings up the point about all the Disciples of Jesus and followers and their hope and obsessivness for heaven. They yearned for it. It was their goal. I wish it would be mine. In the book Ted also gives a metaphor or alalgy. It goes something like this.
Image your in a race, you are running full out and want to win. You start and push yourself to the max, with that finish line as the goal. During the race you take breaks to get drinks at stops along the way. Then you get back on the race, but each time you lose a little hope for that goal. Soon you are running the race and have become more obsessed with the cups of water you get along the way than the goal, the finish line at the end.

This is how we have come to live. We become Christians and can’t wait to get to heaven. We view it as the greatest and our goal. But slowly over time we become more focused on the cups of water than the goal heaven. We start to focus on the rewards of this world, not the next and view that as the best. We don’t look forward to heaven, just our next cup of water. For example a New Car, House, Computer, Video Game, A on a test etc. Yet none of these produce the happiness we want. So we head for the next. This is our problem. I pray for you and for myself that we will wake up. That we will obsess over heaven.

“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:14

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