We are still in Beta.

So I stayed home sick the other day. The funny thing was I didn’t feel that bad, but you know what? That’s ok. See I stayed home for 2 reasons

1. For my body to heal from this sickness.

2. And 2, so that I wouldn’t get others sick.

See it was the typical cold, runny nose, coughing, sore throat, occasional headache. Typical. Now I’m sure I had caught it from someone at school who had the same sort of thing, just a typical cold. I doubt I got it from someone who had the full on thing, this is because when you’re really sick and you have it all you stay home. So I bet it was just someone’s small cold just like mine.

It’s funny, because even though I found my body healing, I found other parts of me heal and grow also. I found that since I got to stay home alone I did a lot of praying, talking with God, reading the Bible, reading other Spiritual books and such. It kind of made me wonder, well why don’t we have soul sick days? Seriously! Say I am having a terrible day, I wake up and it sucks already. As soon as I get downstairs I spill the milk, I’m being a jerk to all my family, I’m slamming doors and such shouldn’t I take a sick day? I mean it, I’m serious. It would be best for everyone wouldn’t it? You might not think it’s going to help you, just like I didn’t think staying home would help me, but it will. Rather than me going and getting others sick, or me going and being a jerk to everyone I should stay home. Now as I said earlier I probably cought the sickness form someone who had it a little bit. Well it was probably from a combined group of people who were partially sick. Well it’s the same with spiritual sickness, I might have it only sort of bad, just a grumpy day or I haven’t talked to God in a while one on one, but it could also be really bad, and that’s where I would get sent home anyway because I would do something bad. Do you see what I’m saying? You could go to school on a really bad day and get detention, or suspension or anything. That’s what I’m saying. The really bad days aren’t what you have to worry about so much, the really bad sickness you’ll stay home and you won’t rub off on anyone, but the sort of sick or bad or unspiritual days, that’s what you have to worry about. When you head to school on one of those days you have to try extra extra hard to not contaminate anyone, not to be a bad influence, or a give a bad reputation for Jesus. That’s why it’s better to stay home. I don’t want to go to school and leave some of my sickness with someone else, I also don’t want to go to school and leave someone with hurt feelings from me. Basically all I’m trying to say here is just like we have sick days for health, we need to have sick days for spirituality and bad days in general so we don’t give someone else a bad day, or a sick spirit. You follow?

So I’ve finally gotten into the schedule of things! I have a lot to cover so I’ll start at the beginning. A few weeks ago, otherwise known as the beginning of school life looked like this.

During Theatre class Goff says “Alright so you will all have to audition for the fall show coming up this Thursday or Friday”

My Schedule I ordered that is flipping sweet still hasn’t arrived

Youth Group isn’t weekly yet

Small Group is just getting started

Practicing the piano is forgotten

I’m reading about 12 books at the same time

I’m going to bed way to late

I have 2 computers to work on

life is crazy, and insanely busy but not bad…… just overwhelming at times.

Now fast forward to today.

I got in the show. I was told the Monday before last, as in the 11th. Life got crazy. I quit the show as of last Monday, the 18th.

My Schedule finally arrived as of Monday afternoon! Finally can get stuff on the calendar!

Youth group is now weekly as of yesterday night.

Small Group will be on it’s 4th night this coming Monday the 24th, amazing isn’t it? I finally got my focus back on the original idea, hear about it Monday.

I’ve been practicing the piano more regularly, I remember it’s fun!

I’m only reading, 1-2-3-4-5-6-7 books right now. Haha! I finished one a few days back, started another, etc. life goes on.

I’ve been in bed before 11 a lot recently! Usually between 10 and 10:40.

I had 5 computers at my house, 1 on the way to be worked on. As of now I have 3 to be worked on, 1 almost done, 1 on the way, and 1 paid for and given back to the owner.

Life is awesome, slowing down a bit, I’m in the flow of school, work, piano, church, and small group! I’ve got more money than I could ever need at this age. Life is good, no, life is great! I have my David Crowder CD’s. I’m dancing all the time to them and at church, during youth group, street partys, school, street corners, basically anywhere there is good music. I don’t care what others think I love dancing and I love worshiping God. Oh and I just bought my ticket to the Nintendo Fusion Tour Concert!!!!!!!! YES! It is going to rock!

I’ve been extrememly busy lately. Or in other words I’ve had lots of noise and distractions going on. It’s hard to follow God and devote your time to him when you have a ton going on. Though it should be easy; listen to this verse

Psalm 46:10

“Be still, and know that I am God”

Now how much simpler can it get? Be still. It seems easy doesn’t it? It isn’t. Answer this, what is the longest you have sat doing nothing, not sleeping, not watching TV, but sat and done nothing? Maybe just looked at the stars, or clouds or sky? Just sat? It probably wasn’t very long. When was the last time when someone said something to you that was mean, and you stayed silent? The last time someone hit you, that you didn’t hit back, or say something? See how hard it is? Being still, takes work! It should be the simplest thing ever, yet we make it so difficult. We have so much noise going on such as Plays, Church, Bible Studies, Fires, Stolen things, crashes, birthday parties, School, Homework, things to distract us like computers, TV, books, video games, friends, there is no end to it. Sometimes we just need to be still. Don’t do anything. Sit and enjoy. Look outside right now, wherever you are. Is it nice out? Good, it won’t be for long so go enjoy it now. Just spend 10minutes sitting, or laying and not doing anything. Go be still. You can comment on this post after you’ve been still if you want, but not now.
Enjoy!

Wow, see. It’s so true that Christians feel this amazing feeling, but not always. It makes you kind of wonder, why can’t I always feel like this? Though if we always felt like that would we have faith? Or as strong of faith?

Hebrews 11:1

“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.”

I think it is truly an amazing feeling though. I got to feel it more today. Let’s tell the story. So my youth group did a Free Car Wash today and we had a boom box with batteries. So after a while probably 2:30-3hours into it I put my Sunsets and Sushi CD into it and played track 2 (O Praise Him (All This For A King) (Oceanic Mix)) Which has a sweet beat! Then I went down to where the cars were and where the others were holding signs and just started dancing. Some of it was breakdancing, some was crazy dancing, jumping, leaping, skipping, and lots of laughing. Now at one point Bailey asked me “aren’t you embarassed” and I said “not at all” and I wasn’t. It was great. I felt the joy and love of praising God through dancing and singing. Plus we were doing a Car Wash for him. So that’s my story. I rather liked it (the dancing not the story). See the funny thing about it was also the fact that I am not very good at making up dances on the spot, I’m more of a you tell me what to do and I’ll do it. So my dancing was nothing spectacular, it was mainly just me throwing my body around with all my might. But it was great, and now my toes and feet hurt cause I was barefoot, oh and I wasn’t wearing a shirt, but I loved it……. it reminds me of a verse that I used in the last post.

2 Samual 6:14

“David wearing a linen ephod, danced before the LORD with all his might.”

Amazing. I love God. I love hope, I love mercy, joy, faith, dancing, laughter, sun, stars, the moon, rain, waterfalls, undignifiedness (is that a word) and anything else to do with God, beauty and uncaringness. It might not have been beautiful to watch me, but I think God saw it as his son dancing to him uncaring and thought it was the most beatiful thing ever. Uncaring joy.

Don’t you just love/hate when you have such an amazing feeling you can’t explain in words or get out? I’m not sure if that made sense, but you have such an incredible feeling you just have to dance, scream, yell, sing, jump, skip, hop and just rejoice? I’ve been like that a lot lately and I don’t know what to do other than praise God. It’s amazing how God will speak to you. For example right as I started writing this post the song I was listening to switched to “You Are My Joy” Here is what it says

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And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.
With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And he set me on fire and I am burning alive.
With his breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And I cannot hold it in and remain composed.
Love’s taken over me and so I propose the letting myself go.
I am letting myself go.

You are my joy.(x4)

And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.
With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.
With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And I cannot hold it in and remain composed.
Love’s taken over me and so I propose the letting myself go.
I am letting myself go.

You are my joy. (x4)

I need to catch my breath, I need to.
I need to catch my breath, give me a moment now.

You are my joy.(x4)

I’m laughing so hard
And I’m laughing so hard
And I’m laughing so hard

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So I think that this song perfectly explains what I’m feeling as of late. That is, it explains as well as it can something that cannot be expressed in words, music, dance, song, or anything alone. It is an amazing feeling, the best, and yet torture at the same time. It’s like I’m burning alive, with love for God. This once again reminds me of one of my favorite verses in the Bible.

2 Samual 6:14

“David wearing a linen ephod, danced before the LORD with all his might.”

That is what this feeling is… Crazy, uncaring love. As another David Crowder Band song goes “And I will become even more undignified then this”. I feel like a river overflowing with life and I can’t control it…hmmm yet another Bible Verse.

John 7:38

“Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him.”

So I’m sorry if I go crazy on you in the next few days, or randomly start running through the halls of school. I’m just full of joy, yet I’m sitting on my computer. Why? Hopefully so you read this and get something from it. My prayer today is for you to experience this feeling.

Joshua 3:5

“the LORD will do amazing things among you.”

Amen to that! Recently I’ve gotten to see lots of God at work. From Bible Studys, Blessings, to friends, problems, miracles and more. It’s been amazing! I’ve learned that A. God answers prayers B. Friends can help and C. God is amazing! Oh and just so you all know, it would be great if you could pray for me cause I started a Bible Study (small group) and I need help! I kinda just went with God and I know it’s what he wants me to do, but I have never lead a small group/Bible Study before. So pray that he gives me wisedom and leadership. Recently also I’ve been really connecting with God through music. I now have 2 David Crowder Band CD’s and I love them! I really really want to go to a huge event like ATF, DYC, IYC, or just a concert where I can just jump and dance, scream, yell sing and just praise God. Unluckily ATF (Aquire the Fire) isn’t till April! So if any of you know of other concerts or anything coming up I would love to know! God sure is amazing though and he does answer prayer, even if it takes 9 months, or more.

P.S.-Haha, I guess I am clumsy! I kept wondering why no one was posting on this post! I kept seeing it, but no one else was, that’s why! I just realized that if I head to my site on a different computer it won’t show this post (wouldn’t) becuase I had it as private…. oops! Clumsy me.-

So I’ve decided I need some humor on this blog! I guess I’m just not good at it. I’m more of a thought person, than a story person. I’ve been reading other people’s blogs and they usually have funny stories about themselves being stupid or clumsy or whatever. I guess I’m just not stupid, or funny, or clumsy cause I sure don’t have any stories like that. But I have decided this needs more humor, and stuff about my life. The last post was kind of funny, it wasn’t serious anyway. So anybody have any funny stories about me I can’t think of? Cause I can’t think of any! I guess I’m to tight as Kaitlynn would say. That’s right! I’m tight…. anyway.