We are still in Beta.

My life is like a movie.

There has been good things, and bad things.

But, I can’t say it’s been mainly good, or bad, just consistently exciting.

The only problem is, I have to use the restroom and my pause button is broken.

Theatre class makes you think. That’s what I have decided. The other day we had to do a scene/dance/theatre piece/song/art’s school thing about this poem we got. Anyway, after about 45 minutes of my group discussing it trying to pull something juicy out of it, we got an idea. From there, it was like a tiny bowl of bubbles, being blown into by a straw, creating more and more and more, ever expanding.

Anyway, the poem was called “End of Summer”. While reading it we all agreed to focus on the section that includes this

“and the sparrows
shattering to nowhere are the Summer
waving that here is where it turns”

Now our idea was to focus on the word nowhere. From there we all came up with ideas and over the process of it, we hit gold. Or I felt like we did, or… I felt that I did. See….. in our scene thingy we had one of the students sitting in the middle, just staring, then two others come in, arguing and saying lines from the poem at each other. Meanwhile I am on stage grabbing at anything, but I can’t hold it. I’m just grasping air. Nothing. Finally another group member comes in, she’s singing “glasses and silver, glasses and silver” while playing imaginary hopscotch. I pause, stare at her. “She’s found it” I think; Nowhere. Meanwhile the other members yell and fight, and one just sits and stares.

That was basically what our piece was. Now it wasn’t exactly as I wanted it, but it worked. Basically the idea I came up with, went like this. The poem was talking about childhood. It is talking about the End of Summer, or the end of your childhood, or in a sense, nowhere. See the group member on the ground, he was nowhere. He was representational of that, or so I thought. The two arguing members, they are the world, the “real” world so to speak. And the girl? The girl has found nowhere, she’s in it, without knowing it. As for me, I’m looking for nowhere. See it’s…. it’s this magical thing, this place…. I don’t know what I’m looking for, I just, I know I am. I know I should be, I reach out, trying to grab it, but can’t. The girl, she is in it, I see that, but don’t know it, while… at the same time… I do.

See… in a sense, nowhere, is everywhere. Well. Nowhere, is where you want to be. If that makes sense. See we spend all this time trying to leave childhood, trying to grow up, get to the “real” world. Which is just filled with sadness and despair and stress, but nowhere… nowhere is joy, nowhere is happiness, nowhere is pure bliss. So that’s why I was searching, yet I didn’t know it. It’s interesting because, see the fact is, that….we all get so focused on life, that we lose sight of real life, being nowhere. Jesus said

“I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” (NIV)

or in The Message version

“I’m telling you, once and for all, that unless you return to square one and start over like children, you’re not even going to get a look at the kingdom, let alone get in. Whoever becomes simple and elemental again, like this child, will rank high in God’s kingdom.”

See, Jesus was a wise man, I mean… he was Jesus. He knew what he was talking about when he told us to be like a child. Or in the Message version he says “Whoever becomes simple and elemental again:. I like that. I want to go back to being simple. I want to go back to being elemental. I would like to go back to being in love with having fun, and even more so, I would love to go back to being in love with God’s creation. So that’s what I’m praying for. God to make me like a child again. God to bring me to nowhere, and for me to enjoy it.

See you nowhere.