I ache. In my heart. I don’t know what it is, or why. It’s sort of a mix between the nostalgic depressed mood, and the have to go do something feeling.
It’s strange, it makes me want to change the world in a way, affect it somehow. Yet at the same time it almost cripples me. I don’t understand it.
“The heart has it’s reasons which reason knows nothing of.” (Blaise Pascal)
I wish this would go away, and yet, I like it. Sometimes I wonder what’s wrong with me. I don’t know how to cure this pain, but I think….I think I know what I want to replace it.
The exact opposite feeling. Though I don’t know what that feeling is yet. Let me know if you find out what that feeling is.
Well, I’ve officially decided that life has caught up to me, and unfortunately I’m only halfway through the race, and it doesn’t feel like I can pick the pace up anymore……
so I guess that means I need a faster car….. or to work out more. I’m not sure which. I guess it depends on what type of race it is, a car race, or a running race.
Hopefully I’ll do both! That is, get a car and work out more.
Uugh, what a depressing night, I don’t even know why, it just is. I feel like I should be doing something important, making memories or something. Instead I’m heading to bed as soon as this post is done. Life has been a mess lately, and I don’t even know how I’ve made it this far.
Late nights, lots of homework, actual work, problems with my girlfriend, youth group, church, money issues, buying and selling laptops, friends, and then family. It’s all be 24 hours 7 days a week with no pauses.
Time to hit the pause button, or the turbo boost button, but I’m not sure which.
As for now I just ramble on my blog, about nothing, about everything, about life. Hopefully it will help to clear my head, and maybe fill yours.
Well, so long for now.
(P.S. If you just so happen to be a millionaire/billionaire/thousandaire, feel free to click my “Make a Donation” link, currently all donations go towards my car fund! Then I might be able to win the race.)
Thank God for grace like rain. Today, I am so thankful for Jesus’ love for us, and his grace. I need forgiveness. There are things I have done that I am very ashamed of. Yes, I might hide it well, but I sin to, and I need mercy, and forgivenss just like anyone. So as we enter this new year I am asking for prayer, and forgiveness, from anyone I have ever hurt, or harmed. I’m sorry. I am not perfect, I’m sorry.
