We are still in Beta.

And this is the way life is
stress, worry, depression, and torment,
and yet one must realize there is also
peace, joy, happiness and love.
The question is, will you brave the terrors, for the true meanings of life?

It’s coming to an end; my junior year is. I’ve grown a lot this year, but I don’t feel like life will be any different going into my senior year. I’ve grown really close to some friends, and farther apart from others. One more year and then we will all be going our separate ways. It’s a sad thought. I don’t really want a lot of my friends to leave, I think there is something about high school friendships that just, I don’t know, but it’s a friendship that you can’t ever have the same way after high school. I hate thinking about not seeing some people ever again, but I know that God is there and will help me deal with it.

Prom is in less than a week and I have no date and no idea what to wear. I want to go but then again I don’t really. I wish I was going with someone but it almost seems pointless to go with someone unless it’s the person I want to go with. Life is like that yah know? It’s to late to ask anyone anyway, or that’s what I keep saying to myself. I also keep saying, “give it time, next year, next year” but I don’t know if it will be next year or ever for that matter. Hence why I sit and listen trying to trust in God and his guidance.

I hope I’m listening well.